Sensitive Material

I am realizing how raw I am at this stage of my life. I feel that my faith and my heart have been freshly peeled of their outer layer of skin and they are pink and exposed. There is a tenderness that is exposed to too many people and it feels uncomfortable at the best of times. 

I find myself cringing a lot these days, mainly because whenever I get near the topic of homosexuality with people, especially other Christians, I am afraid of what they will say that I will have to process through later. I often find myself thinking "please don't hurt me" when gay marriage or homosexuality and the church are mentioned in a conversation. It just seems that there is so much for me to process through these days, and it takes me a long time to work through things in a healthy way, that filtering through truths and lies of simple conversation with acquaintances is exhausting and far too overwhelming.

There will be more posted shortly. I am currently trying to rest my body so that I don't have to add sleepless mood swings to the list of things I am dealing with.